So this is my uneasy attempt at my very first blog post! ::insert nervous, awkward smile and thumbs up here:: Basically, I've begun the past couple birth years with a list of goals that I make each year of a certain number of things that I am going to attempt to conquer throughout that year before my next upcoming birthday (many people practice this but I personally got the idea from these lovelies here). Though I will not go into each and every goal that I have set out to accomplish just yet, I will tell you that up until this point in my life I genuinely believe I have been, in some strange sense, afraid of being “successful”. I put this word in quotations because frankly success is a subjective thing. It means a million different things to a million different people. To put it in a very broad and easy to digest form, to me being successful means being happy, healthy, secure and creatively fulfilled every day. I have had all of these things, though not at all once or in the capacity that I deem a success and this year my “30 before 30” list was basically a general breakdown of how I can go about being all of those things but in a more profound, meaningful and dare I say, long-term way. I have never been much of a long term thinker honestly. I was (and to an extent still AM) a very go-with-the-flow, fly by the seat of my pants, day-to-day kinda girl which I believe to be a great quality in an individual TO AN EXTENT. There comes a time or maybe an age when as much as you want to retain that 100% free spirited, lackadaisical view about life that you do need to start thinking about the “big picture” and begin building up to something, ANYTHING, that is going to hopefully help ensure you a happy and meaningful life.
Now maybe I’m a square but stability is something that I have begun desperately seeking just a little bit, as of late. I turned 30 in December and unlike many, the age itself doesn't scare me so much as the lack of any worthwhile mentionables in regards to my first 30 years! All that I can recall from the past solid 10 years or more is working my butt off in school and various jobs (both in and out of my chosen field) but always doing it for other people. Always in some way trying to prove my worth to others, my employers and maybe to society as well, as opposed to proving it to myself. I have run across some real....how shall I put this? “Winners” as far as employers go (and yes, by “winners” I mean god-awful, succubus, devil beasts who made my life miserable in many, MANY creative ways). Taking whatever scraps are thrown my way because that’s what you’re supposed to do as you’re working your way up the ol’ corporate ladder right? RIGHT??
So in comes this super powerful aforementioned list and this silly little blog of mine. Blogs can sometimes seem a bit conceited in some instances (endless stream of selfies anyone?) and I am certainly not claiming to be above any potential conceit but for me, blogs have been a HUGE source of inspiration for me to get off of my butt and make my life count. When I am lacking in the inspiration and creativity department, as life and people can so often leave you, blogs have helped hype me back up! For the most part I feel that if I blog my daily dealings, my successes, my failures and all the fun times in between that it will keep me on track. That once I write it and put it out into the universe, if for no other reason than the conceit, I will have to follow through in order to not look like a complete fool. Brilliant logic, no? hah So basically, this blog is going to be a written and photographic story of me trying my damndest to realize and accomplish my personal “successes”. A way to chronicle all of the memories (take more pictures was on “the list” after all!) and perhaps in the meantime maybe my adventures could at the very least entertain, if not dare I say, inspire someone else to take hold of their lives as well! Much easier said than done I realize but what better time than the present to start fresh and start living a more creative and inspiring life? I have accomplished a few things on “the list” (big ones too which I’m stoked about!!) but I think I can do better and with my next birthday fast approaching I want to hit the ground running and really put this past year to shame! So obviously I’m new at this whole putting my entire life on the internet thing so be gentle and let’s see how this whole crazy scheme pans out, shall we?